Young and beautiful

 

Who wouldn't like to be young and beautiful?

I'm not going to reject that proposition.

But there's something I would like better.

I wish to be accepted, I would love to be caught for who I am, for the way I am now.

It is very sad to admit that with my experience and a new body, young and desirable, I could get the woman of my dreams, without a doubt.

But, if I considered that I already lost a good bunch women of my life, and the remaining are already caught at this age, then the most cost effective plan is just keep dreaming, dreaming away. It's cheap, riskless and full of colour...

We love to think that the human beings have evolved into a more indepth form.

But we haven't.

Men continue being desperate to spread their seed on as many receptacles as posible.

Women keep searching for the best father for their kids, the best provider for their families.

And all that need a physical shape. 

A height and weight, some pre-defined measures, some beauty patterns.

But also some other added material prerequisites, namely; stability, financial and work, a functional home, and a stable character, strong emotions and personality, but always within a certain correctness, socially approved.

So, definitely I'm out of that league.

Can I expect then to meet my soulmate if I'm clearly not the dream male to any woman?

I speak from an heterosexual male view, you take it from your genre and genre orientation own perspective.

Sometime ago, I met a wonderful woman, a beautiful human being. Not only I like her with all my brain and my guts, she also saved my life so many times and in so many ways.

And I know she loved me deeply.

But something went wrong. I gave her all my love, my thoughts, my skin. But I failed to deliver her something essential for a relationship to last. Stability. Financial, and what's more important, emotional and psychological stability.

Adventure is nice, everyone fancies a roller coaster from time to time, but not all the time. And I am the mother of all roller coasters. You will never get bored with me by your side, but at some point you might miss some tranquility for your soul.

And this is the typical situation where less is more.

And yes, this is the way I lost almost all of my relationships with the opposite sex.

And finishing with a sentence on this beautiful song of Lana del Rey:

"Will you still love me

When I'm no longer young and beautiful?

Will you still love me

When I got nothing but my aching soul?"

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